Monday, May 3, 2010

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I'm afraid of many things, and one of my biggest fear.... is the unpredictability of life.

Sometimes I forget about it for a moment when I'm fussing over what to eat for lunch or things like which dress should I buy, but this fear stays for the long run. Sometimes I would watch a tragic story, read a sad news, or listen about a particular accident happening to someone related, this fear pops up again and remind me all over again about it.

This person could be here with you an hour ago, and another hour later you never get to see him again. It's so unexpectable!

I'm afraid of physical pain. I can't imagine losing one of my legs, a finger, or sense of sight. I'm afraid of seeing a big part of my skin scraped off exposing wet blood and meat, nor could I be brave enough to undergo a big surgery to save my disfigured face.

Maybe some people would wonder why I think so much. I don't know either. I wish I was fearless, I wish I could have a more positive faith in my life. But I'm sort of forced to believe that the murphy law loves appearing in my life. I'm the kind of person who is never lucky for long. Whenever I save or earn alot, something would happen, for example losing my camera or something and then I have to spend all my savings on a new one. Like I cannot enjoy life one, tsk.

Sometimes, I think on the good side, I think I'm a lucky girl too. Enough luck to protect me from big danger, in exchange for a few minor suay incidents. I think I've quite some luck getting what I want, yet not lucky enough for the best. I'm thankful to my god for it, but I can't help but wonder if one day even my life would turn out like the bitter stories we see on TV.

If I can have a wish come true, I'll wish for myself and the people I love to be safe and immune to danger forever.

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