Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Blogging Phase 159

I don't have much thoughts recently.

That explains the picture-filled posts I have these few days. I update frequently for the past week, with alot of pictures in each post. It's obvious as I scroll down the page. As I sorted out the pictures for my upcoming entries, I got tired of it. Everything's the same. There's nothing interesting although I'm like going out alot.

I'm desperate for a more fulfiling life, one that is filled joy with doing what I like, and trying different activities. I wish to write enriching, beneficial, and meaningful posts. Or at least, have prettier pictures -_-

But I can't. Cos as realistic as life gets, unless you are lucky enough to be doing what you love, most of us are stuck with working to live. I want to break free, and spend my days the way I want. But I know I can't, as financially, I can't support myself without a job (more to why later).

Back to the topic, I miss having some thoughts.

I don't seem to have much opinions on anything recently. Sometimes I think of something but it's too complicated and I can't be bothered to explain. Sometimes, I think that it's perfectly alright and much simpler to write about where I went, who did I go out with, etc. I remember that I used to have alot of strong opinions about almost anything. It's apparent just by clicking on my archives.

I've just enrolled myself into university. (yep, this is also the reason why I NEED to work because blogging alone is not going to pay for the expensive school fees I have)

It's not a local nor prestige university. I've never wanted to get a degree, and had never made much effort during my polytechnic years, and I guess it explains my sucky GPA. I just wanted to get it over and done with, and quickly join the workforce.

It was then when I join the workforce, I realised that I don't really know what I want. Okay, I do know what I want, but it isn't coming my way. Well, sometimes we just can't expect life to be ideal all the time right.

And so, I thought of taking up a full time degree course and get plenty of time to live a more fulfiling life than what I'm doing now.

BUT, after researching and calculating the school fees, I'm now stuck with part time studies + full time job.

I'll now be more busy than ever.

The chase for a more enriching life will definitely have to be put on hold. I think that at the end of the day, I just need money. I can do alot of things that I want, with that powerful M letter word. I'll set up those somethings that I've always wanted but didn't have the financial ability to do so no matter how many decades I save.

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