12am.
It's 12.06am.
I've been typing for 26 mins yet i dont know how i should put them in words.
I've been trying to save everything that was crumbling.
But to no avail. It just keeps tumbling down and down.
And as i looked at it fading away, i could do nothing at all.
I didn't know what to do.
I've not felt like this for a long time already.
Where could i pour out my emotions?
Not here. Definitely not here.
Not boyfriend.
Not arthur.
Not isaac.
Not fiona.
Not my family.
Not anyone.
Even the closest people around me,
dont understand, dont see how much i need them now.
I guess no one really really knows.
My inner feelings, who bothers? who cares?
&& how would you feel, when a new friend of your close friend says something negative about you, yet your close friend kept quiet and let her continue, listened to her, believed her, and put you down because of the new friend?
Im not pointing to anyone around me. Just wondering.
P/S: PLEASE STOP ASKING ME TO PROVIDE YOU WITH JESSICA's OR WHOEVER'S BLOG ADDRESS. IM OKAY WITH ANSWERING YOUR QUESTIONS BUT GETTING THOSE SAME QUESTIONS ON MY COMMENT BOX REPEATLY EVERY SINGLE DAY IS IRRITATING!
IM NOT YOUR BLOG DIRECTORY. IF YOU CARE SO MUCH ABOUT YOUR LOVELY BLOGGER, GO GOOGLE HER NAME. IM NOT HERE TO HELP YOU DO THINGS THAT YOU ARE LAZY TO DO YOURSELF.
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NOTE: Im not pissed at Jessica, neither did i had a quarrel with her.. This hasnt even got anything to do with her.
It's the commentors that keep asking and asking and asking the same question again and again every single day that made me so irritated. It was okay for awhile but not when it got to the extent of too frequent. It's not as if it's an exclusive information which only i know. Google.com was there for a reason.
Im not pointing to any particular commentor, im sure they meant no harm and didn't know that someone else had asked before they did.
And for the commentor who said that this should not be the attitude of a popular blogger, all i want to say to you is: You've already said it. Im a BLOGGER. Not GOOGLE.
When im in a bad mood, i dont accept negative comments. So save your efforts if you are going to start putting me down again. Wait till im in a better mood.
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