Saturday, March 26, 2016

Just Some Thoughts

Long weekends are awesome! Today is especially shiok because I'm spending the entire day alone at home. It's now almost 6pm but I haven't done anything productive though. Haha. Just lazing around, watching videos and scrolling Facebook.

Just the other day, I thought to myself about my changes over the years. Most of my late teens period was all about blogging, most of my friends were bloggers, and I write on this space all the time. I was very involved with the blogosphere those years but things started changing around the time I was three years into my full time career. I became one of those in the rat race. I couldn't resist the temptation of success and I was constantly focusing on work. I made more friends from outside the blogging circle, got closer to a selected few, and stopped socializing or meeting new people altogether. Always busy, time was especially precious to me and all I wanted to do when I come home after a long day was to relax and watch videos, or chit chat with my friends.

I loved the time spent doing normal things besides blogging. I used to like blogging alot though, perhaps because I felt more connected with my audience last time? Somehow people used to be more responsive? Nowadays it feels like I'm talking to the wall. If not for my statcounter, I would really think I have zero visitors. Haha. But then again, I also wonder why these people keep coming back to read even though I've obviously gotten more and more boring through the years. (This is what adulthood does to you boohoo.)

There were instances when I thought of not writing here anymore, but I remembered how much I enjoyed reading my archives. This page is a memory capsule, for me to look back when I get older. I remind myself that I'm blogging for myself. If I don't write, if I don't post, then all these experiences and memories will be gone in afew years. So if you noticed, my writing structure and photos improved, but content quality decreased. Most entries are just pictures and very little text. Just enough for me to look back and remember.

Somehow whenever I write heartfelt thoughts here, I will eventually backspace everything. Now that I look back on my older entries, I wonder why I shared so much personal thoughts in detail. Haha. Friends who know me in real life know that I am a very opinionated person and I openly share my views all the time. Especially to my close cliques, I say anything and everything. So different from my online persona right. Haha. I'm such a empty person online.

I occasionally still write like how I used to many years back, except it's on Dayre! Follow me if you haven't already! My username is estherxie.

Meanwhile, I shall try to write more personal thoughts here!


  1. Went to read your 2006 archives after reading your post lor! :D

  2. I think the reason why I come back to your blog is because nowadays it's difficult to find blogs that aren't so curated you know? People are caught up with portraying an ideal image of themselves online, like everything has to appear perfect on their blogs. Yours is still pretty sincere and raw. Makes you very relatable. haha.

    I think you should still write your heartfelt thoughts here leh. Cuz sometimes when you read the silly things you wrote in the past, it's all for a good laugh you know. Or you can see how much you've matured in your thoughts instead of just scrolling through pics. Like you said, for memories sake. I mean I would document even the littlest things in life cuz they are precious to me as well. I'm sure you're like that too right? haha

    1. Your comment is very encouraging! I hope to keep this blog alive and document my life journey as much as I can, till as old as I can!