Monday, December 31, 2007

Today is the last day of 2007!
Whooosh, it was fast.

So many things happened to me during this year. The downfall of my longest relationship, the start of my polytechnic life, knowing new friends, featured on newspaper, radio interviewed, appearing on tv, flamed by xx, having the biggest bday party i ever had, and meeting my current boyfriend.

Thinking about it, i've never thought all this would happen to me when i started 2007. Now i wonder what is in store for me for 2008.

Im happy about my acheivements.. Im happy about the readers who started hating me and slowly start to like reading my blog. To me, it's an acheivement. Jessica used to dislike my blog personality because she found me quite haolian, but after awhile she thinks im actually a nice person and came to make friends with me. When she told me about it, i was feeling super happy! Although many people say they dont care, but who would like knowing that people dislike them? i used to be very affected by online critics, but after awhile i got used to it. But however, there are still times where i would feel down when i got home after a tired day to see so many people disliking me on my blog.

It's great to have a blog where many people read. But sometimes it's stressing too. Everytime i post something up, i would have to think twice. Many times i was tempted to blog about my photoshoots, but i fear the criticsms - from readers, and from more experienced model friends.

They might feel im bragging about these shoots i've been going to, but the only reason why i wanted to blog about them because i felt they are fun! I enjoy it, and i felt like writing about it to share with everyone.. I've been blogging very little recently because practically shoots are the only things filling my days. When i cant blog about them, i have nothing to blog about.. Even when i want to post up photoshoot pics of myself, or even simple handphone camwhore pictures, i have to stress myself thinking about whether it's perfect enough to avoid any criticisms.

I've told boyfriend many times during our late night talks, that i felt very tired over this.. Seems like the freedom of blogging whatever i want has been taken away from me.

Other than these little things, im still grateful for the number of hits my blog invites each day. Daddy and mummy are proud of my blog, and im happy to have acheive something for them. I love you readers :)

Oh. i didn't plan to blog such huge chunk of words. I only wanted to post this video up of my 3 cute cousins, but those thoughts flowed in..

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Saturday, December 29, 2007

Super tired!
Yesterday was the busiest day of my life.

Woke up at 5.30am, bathe, makeup, dressup, and off i go to chinese garden for a shoot with several photographers and another model, Miyo.

Miyo is super fun and bubbly, and every single one of us were shocked when we found out that she's already 21! Haha. Chinese Garden is super far away from home, and i spent more than an hour on travelling from pasir ris to there. It was super hot too! I kept sweating and sweating.. Hope the pics would not turn out 'shiny'. Haha. Quite fun though. Among the 7 photographers, one of them is a female. I wanna be a photographer when i grow up too! It's so fun to capture people :)

Blah. I have so many ambitions. I wanna be an air stewardess too, so that i can travel to many many countries! My height just nice qualified, but another requirement is that you have to know how to swim.... and i cant swim! =(

After the chinese garden shoot which ended around 1pm, we all were super hungry so we went to eat nearby. Then i took the mrt home... bathe and change clothes, switch on laptop to accept comments, and off i go to bugis for another event..

Super tired! I forgot what the event was about... I think it's some studio opening? hmm, so there were around 30 photographers there..... and only 2 models for them to test on. Me and another more professional model April. When she wear her uber high heels, she looked so sleek and tall beside me that i look like an ordinary little girl. Super tired! The flash from the lights were super strong that i grew more and more sleepy. I guess it's because i woke up super early yesterday.

the makeup artists doing makeup for April. I did mine before hers... and i think the pink eyeshadow made me look abit puffy eyes. Hope the pics turns out nice though. however, i guess i would have many ugly candid photos because it's so difficult to pose nicely for every single photographer who were triggering their cameras happily at the same time. I only look nice from some angles, and i think many took me from wrong angles. CRYS! Well, shall pray that the photos not too ugly. When i've received these photos and the chinese garden one with miyo, i'll put them up for you guys to see!

The event ended almost 10pm, and most of us went for supper. It was dinner for me though, cos i didnt have time to eat. Travelling time is wasteful! One of the photographers sent me and some others home after that. Thanks alot, if not i'll have to take the slow train back home. Once i reached home i fell asleep almost instantly. Mum was kinda shock cos normally i would want to use the internet for awhile...

I've recovered from sorethroat, but flu and cough is still there.. Thanks for all the advices in my previous posts!

I wish more interesting things come my way....
In the next post i'll either blog about that shoot where i have very light makeup on.... or if you guys are tired of listening to me ramble about shoots, den i shall blog about 3 very cute little children!

:D Have a nice day everyone~~~

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Had wanted to update a long entry but chatted with boyfriend on the phone until it's late and now im only left with afew minutes to blog something before my mum honk me to bed cos i've to wake up early tomorrow to go out.

*wow. that was a long sentence. No commas!

Okay, let's blog about something else first!

My whole family is sick.

It's so irritating to get sick when i have so many plans this few days to go out and have fun. Grr. Tell me how to cure immediately? Dont ask me drink honey. No honey at home..

Just popped two pills of panadol justnow. Im allergic to panadol as i'll itch after that, but at least i have hope that i'll get cured by tomorrow morning. It feels terrible to wake up in the morning with a painful lump in your throat and having man's voice. Or worse, no voice at all.

I feel like im on the final stages of death.

Blah. After ranting about my sickness i've forgotten what i initially wanted to blog about... Went shopping today! Bought many many things.. A top, 3 dresses, 3 fake eyelashes, and a pair of silver highheels! It was lucky that i bought a new pair of heels because when i was on my way home at night, my original heels broke!


Okay, happy belated christmas everyone.
Here's a Santarina shoot i had before christmas. The photographer havent finished with all the photos. Here are two preview pics. DONT LAUGH AT MY HAT! =P


Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Angela's new album!
Currently my favourites are:
- Wo lian ai le
- Bu xiang dong de
- Qin ai de na bu shi ai qing *NICE!
- Tou hao tian xin

MERRY belated CHRISTMAS to everyone!!

How did i celebrate my christmas?
Rotting at home!

Family celebrated on eve. Me and bf celebrated already. So on actual day i just sat at home infront of my laptop the whole day.

Had actually wanted to blog yesterday but felt super lazy and kept delaying to click on Even when i finally signed in, i clicked "new post" and continue surfing other websites. Before i could realise, it was already midnight! Then i decide to sleep instead. hahaha. One dumb lazy girl i am.

Let's do some random update okay? :D

First, happy belated bday to Winnie! Was invited to her birthday party at raffles but i couldn't make it.

Sister laughed at this notice board because she imagined everyone throwing food inside for fun.

My impression of SALMON was always that red piece of raw meat. Not this big fish!

My friend emailed me a series of this comic.


Father: who do you want to marry in the future?
Small Snail: Hmm. usually grandma treats me the best! I want to marry her!
Father: Rubbish! How can you marry my mother!
Small Snail: Then, how can you marry MY MOTHER?!

2nd comic:

Employer: Is there anything that you can't do?
Interviewee: There are only two things that i can't do in this world.
Employer: Really? what are the two things that you cant do?
Interviewee: I "this" dont know how to do, I "that" also dont know how to do.

Me and sister were talking in the middle of the night, when we listed out the "I love you"s in different languages:

Our findings:
(English) I Love You
(Chinese) Wo Ai Ni
(Malay) Saya cintamu
(Spanish) Te Amo
(Cantonese) Ngo oi ney
(Japanese) Kimi o ai shiteru
(Korean) Sarangheyo

And lastly.... ii lurrbbezx euu worrzx !!
Gah, we were just talking nonsense.

Anyway, I was invited to blog on under fashion category:

Give me ideas of what i should blog there! I've absolutely no idea what to blog about fashion =x Haha. You people can also browse other people's blog there like DavidGan, Jaime Teo, and other celebrities. Here:

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It was a boring telephone conversation that dragged on and on about random things.

Kelvin: I want a new watch.
Esther: I give you my house clock then you wear on your wrist lor.
Kelvin: OKAY LOR. then nextime when you grumble that you want new clothes i shall give you my house curtain.


Im having sorethroat. SAD :(

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Live, Laugh, Love.

Pictures from the day out with boyfriend!

Boyfriend gave me this.... Flown from Japan.
He gave me hints before it reached, like:
"there'll be angels around you soon..."
"the angels havent started flying!"
"the angels have flown!"
"the angels landed in singapore!"

Haha. That's him. He can never keep a surprise from me.

A musical box.

And inside, he placed a note that he written himself. What he wrote was so touching that everytime i read it, a tear will flow down. Of course, im not putting up the note for everyone to read. heh. He's such a lovable bf :)

Dinner at Village!
It's a restaurant where you walk around and order the food you want like a buffet, den pass them your "ticket" and they'll "chop" it, and you pay for everything you ordered when you leave the restaurant.

Pacific Dory!! I LOVE FISH.

He loves gassydrinks.
I dont drink gassydrinks.
He purposely buy gassydrink :(
Boyfriend's Oxtail.

The hair.

Im very fed up with my commenting service! Sometimes can accept comments sometimes cannot! The last time i checked, i still had 3 pages of comments not yet accepted. Grrrr.

Need some shopping. Anyone can intro me nice livejournal blogshops that sell beautiful dresses? :)

Saturday, December 22, 2007

My comments service has some internal problem. Will accept all your comments as soon as possible and reply the comments that i have to reply to :)

Celebrated Christmas with boyfriend last night cos i'll be busy on the actual date. Here's a video of yesterday! Loves.

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Friday, December 21, 2007

Suddenly, I hate my physical flaws.
I dont wish to look at any of my photos.

Thick makeup also ugly. Light makeup also ugly. No makeup also ugly. WTH. There's nothing i can do. Maybe i should go under a rock and live there forever with boyfriend until he gets tired of seeing nothing except me and the rock.

Many times i've thought of going for plastic surgery but i dont think i'll ever go for it. Call me gutless. Im afraid of regretting. Im afraid of changes. Im afraid of failures.

After this post, readers would try to comfort with some compliments, while critics would ask me to shut up and stop whining. But this is my blog, if i dont whine here, where do i whine? Compliments...... no matter how many i received, just one criticsm could bring down the rest of the compliments i had.

Why couldn't i be like the other girls?

Sorry for not being the happy usual self. I dont wish to be like this too... Moodswing i guess... Had a great day with boyfriend today. Blog tomorrow. Good night.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

I realised my lack of active blogging.

Well, went to many places and had many fun.
Sometimes i remember to take photos, sometimes i dont.
When i get home, i look at the pictures and didnt feel like blogging about them. They looked so random.

That night, boyfriend sent me this sms:
" Shakes Esther until left with E."
and i replied:
"EVIL. help me pick up my S,T,H,E & R! "

I love it when we lame-talk :)
Brings a smile to my face when boyfriend always pop up with the lamest and funniest reply that i could never have thought of.

Celebrating advanced christmas with him tomorrow after 2 shoots. I've been neglecting him because of shoots, and made him sad... I've decide to plan my time properly and spend more time with him! He's still my piority ^^

Mum felt hardworking suddenly that night, and made supper for the whole family. Bread dipped in egg and fried.. Yummy!
Family's day out last tuesday, and we went to ikea to have a feast.... over chicken wings! My whole family love chicken wings and have no problem eating many of it. Think of slimming another day lah!

Mum ate this. We didnt, because we dont eat beef.

i like lots of creamer.

Hopped over to Giant to eat dinner and this! I love this :)

Taken yesterday, before going to sentosa.
Blog about it another day! :D

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

I was flipping through a magazine when i saw this. I LOVE HER EYE MAKEUP!

Me and my boyfriend DID NOT break up while i was feeling very down that day. Didn't even thought of it. Well, some people thought we did. He's an understanding boy, and i appreciate him for that :)

Was out the whole day today, and really tired to blog about anything. Will try updating with photos maybe tomorrow.

Here's two dresses that i want to sell :)

$10. Wear it with waistbelt or without.
bought it from at $18. Worn once for photoshoot and no more :)

Brand New! Not worn before. ( EXCEPT TO TAKE THIS PHOTO -.- )

Buy both together at $15 :)

Monday, December 17, 2007

Iwantadigicam. says:
Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket *SHAKES KELVIN*
Iwantadigicam. says:
Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket *shakes kelvin again*
© RUBBERBAND Production says:
© RUBBERBAND Production says:
why shake me
© RUBBERBAND Production says:
later the N drop
© RUBBERBAND Production says:
left KELVI
© RUBBERBAND Production says:
Iwantadigicam. says:

Boyfriend always say the most random things at the most random times :)

Sunday, December 16, 2007

It's one of those days when i feel extremely down.

I feel like i have NOTHING,
and i seem to find faults in EVERYTHING.

I feel so frustrated, my head is in a pain.
My life seems so messed up,
and i can't do anything about it.

No one understands.
Not even you.

Im always like this. You just didnt noticed it before.
Go find someone who isnt as unreasonable as me. Go.
I've given up on believing love since long ago anyway.

You didnt realise what it means by never be harsh in your words to a girl no matter what. She's a girl. A GIRL.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Me: What would you do if you found out you are Bill Gates's daughter?
Sister: say YAY!

*after 2 seconds*

Sister: errrr, no. I'll be super sad.
Me: Why?
Sister: Cause i wasted 13 years of my life living here instead of billgates' rich and luxurious house!!
Me: LOL!

I wonder what it is that makes western people look so western and eastern people look so eastern. Not their noses, there are chinese who have super sharp nose but still look asian. Is their eyebrows? Eyes? hmmmm.

My boyfriend and weeteck! CRAZY. taking picture of one stupid expensive lens which can buy me many many many dresses.

Weekteck has a car leh.......!!
It's a 7 seater. omg. *faints*
Suddenly he is very attractive. haha.

I wonder when is my boyfriend going to buy a car. I want a two-seater, so that if he gets a mistress, that mistress would have to sit at the boot because no more seat for her. *evil laughs*

Met up with Boyfriend's friend, Bell. I think his full name is very girly, so shall call him bell instead.

My first time. OMG. who else havent ate there before except me?

My ice latte.

Boyfriend ordered SwordFish collar. looks like KFC but it's really nice! a very big portion for just almost $15.

I ate NewYork Fish N Chips. Cheese on the fish. Yummy! Two of my favourites in one dish.

It's very very very nice, but at the end of the meal you will feel oil stuck down your throat. VERY OILY.Bell ate sweet and sour fish.

The both of them went for night shoot together, and STOOD IN THE MIDDLE OF ORCHARD ROAD AND OPEN UP THEIR TRIPOD TO TAKE PHOTOS!!!

My boyfriend and his friend is crazy.

Friday, December 14, 2007

I have abit of vampire teeth! :)
Actually i have crooked and abit of buckteeth in front. Regretted not putting braces when i was younger, like around primary 6. At least at that time looks doesn't really matter. Now ask me to put braces? No Way!

I gave up wearing fake eyelashes although it'll look better. Everytime waste almost one hour putting them on, den in the end take them off because they are unequal. grr!

Hee! Breakfast with boyfriend.

Bought donuts for boyfriend and family last night :)

Mummy wanted to try ALL the flavours.
So i cut all the donuts into 4 so that everyone of us can try each flavour! haha.

Found this joke that won an award. I dont know what award :)

A Chinese walks into a bar in America late one night and he saw Steven Spielberg.
As he was a great fan of his movies, he rushes over to him, and asks for his autograph.
Instead, Spielberg gives him a slap and says,
"You Chinese people bombed our Pearl Harbour, get outta here."
The astonished Chinese man replied,
"It was not the Chinese who bombed your Pearl Harbor, it was the Japanese".
"Chinese, Japanese, Taiwanese, you're all the same," replied Spielberg.
In return, the Chinese gives Spielberg a slap and says,
"You sank the Titanic, my forefathers were on that ship."
Shocked, Spielberg replies, "It was the iceberg that sank the ship, not me."
The Chinese replies,
"Iceberg, Spielberg, Carlsberg, you're all the same."

Haha! Kinda funny, although might be offensive.

And lastly....


Taken in a dark room, with my handphone's flash.